Cupcakes and Sunshine: Coffee Date: February Edition

Saturday, February 17, 2018

Coffee Date: February Edition

Hey, hey!
It's been a really long time since we've had a coffee date! Like maybe since October 2016?! That can't be right. But friends, I do believe it is.

So pour yourself a cup, sit back and relax, and let's chat!! We have a lot of catching up to do.

If we were having coffee right now....

I'd tell you I've eaten a lot of Chipotle in bed lately. I've been out of town on a work trip, and most evenings have looked a lot like this:

...sweatpants and chips and queso. (& the olympics!)

If we were having coffee right now....

I'd ask you if you've read any good books lately? I just started Annie Downs 100 Days to Brave, and it's a good one.

(also Buc-ees in bed? I promise I get up and move sometimes!)

Day One's devotion is to tell someone you're starting a 100-day journey towards a braver, I'm starting it friends! I'll keep you updated!

If we were having coffee right now...

I'd tell you to run as quickly as you can and read The Mingling of Souls: God's Design for Love, Marriage, Sex, and Redemption.

A friend recommended it to me in college and wow, oh wow! It has changed my outlook on so many things. It's been a long time since I've gotten lost in a book, and I looked down after beginning and was on page 98!! Girls, guys, married, single, GO GET THIS BOOK!!!

I'd let you borrow mine, but I've underlined and written in all the margins. Please even if you don't read, read it! Or audiobook it. Or have someone else read it to you! This book has changed my life.

If we were having coffee right now, 

I'd be really honest and vulnerable and also tell you that this article has also changed my life. A few weeks ago, I had some tough conversations with some good friends about where my heart was. And honestly, it has been in a rough spot. I've really struggled with CARING! Caring about people, caring about time, caring about how I spend my time, caring about the mistakes and paths I was taking. And no matter how hard I tried, I just couldn't pull myself to care. These past few months, I could whittle down my actions and thought process to I just don't care. I've felt like I've been faking it. And I don't think this really has been something that I've ever really struggled with before.

After those long (but loving) discussions, I've realized that in the past year since starting a new job, I've really struggled with APATHY.

At my workplace, we've been encouraged to put others at the center of our maps. When the first cartographers created maps hundreds of years ago, they put their location and starting point at the CENTER of the map, and every other destination would follow. The best leaders make others feel like they are the center of the map when it comes to hospitality, selflessness, and care. They make others feel like they are the focal point.

But somewhere between starting that job and now, I think I've forgotten to put Jesus at the center of my map. And because of it, I've lost all direction. I've strayed. I've taken some wrong steps. I've lost primary motivation for why I do what I do both personally and professionally, and the way I lead and love others has definitely taken a big giant step back. And if you know me, I have a terrible internal GPS (I can barely get to Target even though I've been 100 times.) But thankfully, I have the word and some incredible godly woman pouring into me, holding me accountable, and pointing me back on a Kingdom-seeking trajectory.

A few days later, I was speaking with one of my work friends while we were on our travel trip, and I asked... do you think apathy is a sin? Or a result of sin? I did a quick google search and the above article came up and my mind. was. blown.

Apathy is both! It is a sin and a result of sin. And after talking to a few others, I've learned that I'm not the only one struggling with apathy. I think with the busy of work, some of the (careless) choices I've made, and how I've been spending my time, my heart has been hardened with some apathy.

I was working at an elementary school this past week, and each morning before the start of school we sang sweet hymns with the younger grades. Come, Thou Fount of Every Blessing is one of my very favorites, and the words were so real to me...

"Prone to wander, Lord I feel it" YES. I've definitely felt like I've been wandering.

BUT... "Here’s my heart Lord, take and seal it,
Seal it for Thy courts above." 

Because "His streams of mercy are never ceasing" and "call for songs of loudest praise." 

There's GRACE. and TRUTH. And HOPE in the Lord. 

And I'm praying that my heart will be softened.

If we were having coffee right now, 
I'd tell you some days are tough and I'm walking through a lot of heart-healing, but days are full of sweetness, Where's Waldo....

....and some glitter!!

It's been a heart-filled February!

If we were having coffee right now, I'd finish with... 
Hey! It's been great having coffee with you! Happy 3-day weekend, and let's do it again real soon <3 


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